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The Lord Brings Joy in All Occasions

I have only been on this journey for two days and already God has done so much work in my heart. This last week in dealing with my best friend’s death has left me feeling broken, empty and lost from the Lord (and everything else for that matter). Yesterday night I broke down in chapel during worship because I just couldn’t find it in my heart to praise God in the intimate ways that were around me. I ran into the hall and just totally lost it. I couldn’t remember the reasons that God had asked me to be here; couldn’t find Him in my heart to spur me on toward serving for Him this summer. All of my leaders prayed over me and reminded me that it is so okay to be broken. We had to sleep outside in tents that our teams had made earlier that day but needless to say, I didn’t get much sleep.

By the time morning chapel rolled around this morning I could feel the Spirit urging me to offer my pain to the Lord. Then I found out that the word of that morning’s talk was (drumroll please) surrender. We spent the rest of the morning surrendering our chains to the Lord and allowing Him to break through the walls that were keeping us from Him. Since then the Lord has filled me with such a joyful peace and comfort from His love that is filling my broken heart.

This is a short post, but I just needed to declare to you that death cannot defeat us for we are alive in Jesus Christ. God is already working in gigantic ways right now and come Tuesday when training ends and we fly to Guatemala I know that He will be revealing to each and every one of us exactly how He needs us to be used as servants.

The Lord speaks to all of us and through His voice we have life. I pray that the joyfulness of the Lord that is consuming my heart will be felt by you, especially when you find yourself alone and in the dark.

“That is why I am suffering as I am. Yet I am not ashamed, because I know whom I have believed, and am convinced that he is able to guard what I have entrusted to him that day.� 2 Timothy 1:12